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Monday, 20 June 2011
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Blah blah blah...
i miss that feeling, i miss that funny stomach feeling, i like talking to you, if only i could tell you...eh it will pass just like everything else.
and im out lol
Friday, 20 May 2011
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I tried to stay away but i couldn't fight it....
Its moments like this where you're sitting in front of a flashing t.v. not paying attention to what it says instead you see your dancing shadow against wall...
what if i could repeat the past? What would i do different, if i had the chance to do it all over again can i really tell her how I really feel? You go through so many crossroads and times like this 1 a.m. everything flashes back, certain memories, certain events that happened just seem so vivid. You read others tweets texts and so on and it makes you think of the past experiences. But what else to do? You can't reach back and grab that memory and bring it back.
Music is so powerful, it makes you feel things that you haven't felt in years, and for the memories that come up become old pictures in a dusty photo album...
Adele-Someone Like You
Tuesday, 17 May 2011
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It's funny how you leave this sight and it stays in the back of your head, then something snaps, you listen to a song or watch a video or even a show and you remember someone from the past, but you can't really talk to anyone about it because they don't really know what to say that would satisfy that thought. I watched a show that played a song and it reminded me of my first ever serious girl friend because she dedicated this song to me. At the time I was young, had so much life to live but everything just seemed so perfect, easy and careless. It reminded me of when life was easy and she was a dial away and you met eye to eye. As time moved forward you realized that you outgrew each other and it wasn't going to work. Well at least i felt that I outgrew it, and she was left believing that I was the only one for her. We tried to be friends and the last thing we did was never say goodbye. I disappeared and I just dug it deep in my life never to remember. Since then I've done that a few times and never has something brought things up like this until this song. It made me want to write her or contact her just to say hi, to see how things are and how her family is. In the end its just a sudden feeling because this song played. I found her facebook, she used to be my friend on my space but I don't have either and still won't get one. I guess that sudden feeling was just a thought that eventually will fade in to nothing.
The Song was Anna Nalick-Breathe(2 a.m.).....
Thursday, 21 October 2010
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And the curse continues, once i get told that im a nice guy and the greatest guy they have dated or that im so different in a good way its like the kiss of death. What am i suppose to do? Is it time for asshole Ricardo to just take over and just fuck around as much as possible? Thats not me. Its not that I want to get married, I just want something special. I feel like what I used to believe in has crumbled. So many disappointments and they never stop.
I used to look at my mom and dad as a role model couple, as a future that I wanted to mold in to, but even that image has crumbled. It's something that I don't look to. All I want to do is prove to myself that something good is out there for all of us. It just seems like everyday I get proven wrong.
December is going to be such a big month for me, a month that i'm kind of looking forward to, but at the same time I'm to figure out whether or not is the correct move to make. I need to conquer 2011, I need to make 2011 my year. I haven't had a good year in four years. It always seems like its on the decline.
Fuck i need to get out of this funk.
Tuesday, 18 May 2010
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Currently
Stop
By Franco De Vita
Si La Ves
see related'Why do I fall in love with every woman I see who shows me the least bit of attention?' I think Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind is my favorite move because I relate so much to Carey's character, Joel. I mean I could watch this movie so many times and every time I realize how I could compare my self to him. In several occasions, I've wished I could erase my memory of certain people and certain time frames, but there's always those times that help you shape who you are, those memories that just have such a great feeling behind them that you wish you will never forget. Yet, those are those memories that end up hurting you in the end because those are the times that you wish you were still in.
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